What Did I Do ?

What did i do ?
whats right for you ?
Did I do whats best for the four of you?
I have nothing now
I don’t even have you
I have failed
I couldnt take care of you
I need to know if i did whats right
When I didnt fight
I need you to know
I didn’t abandon you
You deserve so much better then i can give you
I didn’t even have a home to call my own
It was just a trailer
An ice chest with nothing in it
But I did i do whats best for you
This is so hard on me
It was so hard to do nothing
Letting go of you
Signing over my rights
There was nothing harder than to give you up
I didn’t want to
But I had no choice either way
I was going to loose you
The four of you are always in my thoughts
You are always in my prayers
It brings me to tears not being able to see you
I want to talk to you
Please forgive me
Please know i never abandoned you
I never will give up on you
I will always be here for you
When your old enough,
You can com live with me if you ever want to Please call me
Please come see me anytime you want
I will always be your mom
I will always be here to help you
But, did i do whats best for you?
I don’t know
I failed you four
I was a terrible mother
I tried it just wasnt good enough
I am so sorry
Please forgive me
I only did what I thought was best for you
So please tell me ,
Did i do whats best for you?
What’s your opinion ?
What’s on your mind ?
Do you feel i did whats best for you ?
I do love you
I love all of you
I love you all the time
You will always be my babies